yes.... when you get angry, take deep breaths.

been doing that for about an hour, and it's not working.

They can't leave me alone. They can't take a hint.

Today was rotten, but of course, no one cares. I got ditched again, and ate lunch alone in an abandoned stairwell.

And I calmly tried to stuff it all down again, and just shut up and do my homework, and it worked for a while.

I was talking to mom about something I had read, and dad, of course, butts in to try and tell me why, by his fucking moronic political views, I'm wrong. This was the beginning.

I needed to get a study guide for history class. Need to get aquainted with the AP test. I find the book online I need, because Mr. Chan mentioned it in class, and everyone said when they went to look for the book, it was sold out at the store.

My mother forced me to call every booksoter she could think of, just to ask if it was in stock, even though I well knew it wasn't.

>.<

And they've been yelling at me.

And I've been yelling back.

I do not like fighting.

I do not like being yelled at.

I cannot stand being ignored.

They wonder why I want to get out of the house and away from them? this is why.

The loud music? The fact that I do not want to talk to them?

This is why.

Tomorrow, I stop procrastinating.

I'm going to Safeway to look for more little blue pills.

I've just burned everything I hate about myself and the room smells of smoke. It's a good thing. Trust me.

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don't be afraid of the future. it doesn't include you, it only removes you.

It is the duty of every patriot to protect his country from his government."
- Thomas Payne