I should feel lonely.

I'm really not sure what I feel. Yes, I'm usually around people, but it's still the same walking through a faceless sort of crowd thing; like in movies where the director wants to convey the lonliness of the main character, and shows them walking through crowds of people, usually in the rain, with sad music, with none of the crowd's faces visible.

I used to feel lonely.

When I'd sit alone, or sit with "friends" while silently sensing their resentment, I'd feel lonely, not as an effect of being lierally alone, but just isolated. I'm sure there's at least 20 entries in this whinefest of a diary to support this claim. Strangely, it's different now. Yes, lonliness, yes, isolation, but it doesn't hurt, I don't exactly feel sorry for myself, I've not threatened to kill myself this year yet, it's just odd...

Older Stuff:
i'm a chargin mah laz0rz. - September 30, 2008
the summertime blues - June 21, 2008
my life so far - March 22, 2008
empty pockets - February 19, 2008
speech pattern changes - March 12, 2007

don't be afraid of the future. it doesn't include you, it only removes you.

It is the duty of every patriot to protect his country from his government."
- Thomas Payne