urb...this "force myself to be happy" thing isn't working.

nope nope nope.

I feel like the world is trying to exclude me, but then, that's incredibly narcicisstic...

Had to turn down football game/social event for Saturday because of some family event. I do not want to spend time with my family. I do not want to spend time with my parents. I want to be by myself, or with friends, or with someone who gives a shit. (obviously, that would be few people at school x_x)

please world, just leave me to sleep until I'm feeling better or if some one cares enough to wake me up. I think I'd envy the living dead...

Older Stuff:
i'm a chargin mah laz0rz. - September 30, 2008
the summertime blues - June 21, 2008
my life so far - March 22, 2008
empty pockets - February 19, 2008
speech pattern changes - March 12, 2007

don't be afraid of the future. it doesn't include you, it only removes you.

It is the duty of every patriot to protect his country from his government."
- Thomas Payne