I understand sleeping pills.

I don't have any, nor the 12 hour dimatap I used to have, (because I haven't gotten around to getting to the an actual store), but I understand them.

I somewhat envy the princesses in fairy tales who do something stupid and end up sleeping for years and years and years. I wouldn't mind doing that myself.

And the world would just past me by, and I wouldn't change; just stay the same, kinda like suspended animation. (but not like cryogenics, because from what I've heard, they can freeze you alright, but they can't unfreeze you, I think it's like what happens when you freeze strawberries, the ice shards burst th skin of the berry, and when you thaw it, it's all mushy. I imagine the same thing would happen to my cells if I tried to freeze myself)

I couldn't sleep at school, even if I wanted to. (I haven't been able to sleep in public ever since the first day of 4th grade, when I fell asleep on the floor while the teacher was talking, I was really embarassed.)

So I plug in and tune out.

I may be slightly going deaf, but it's almost worth it just to block away everything, all the petty school annoyances, the shrill voices, the yelling (which shouldn't bother me, because most of the music I listen to at school has a lot of screaming)

I mostly just want to hide out from everything. I mean, I like people and all, but enough is enough...

I'd rather just not confront any problems now (which is so not like me), I want to curl up in a little ball someplace soft and warm.

Somewhere safe.

Older Stuff:
i'm a chargin mah laz0rz. - September 30, 2008
the summertime blues - June 21, 2008
my life so far - March 22, 2008
empty pockets - February 19, 2008
speech pattern changes - March 12, 2007

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