There is one week until winter vacation.

The router shouldn't be gone too long because dad sent it to LA to get it fixed.

I have been freezing all day.

I finally learned how to breathe while I swim freestyle, so I guess I won't be feeling like I'm going to pass out as I swim anymore.

I woke up at 5 in the morning to get online. No one there. Couldn't bring myself to go back to bed. So I just wandered aimlessly online until about 6:30. Dragged myself off to school....finally brought lunch with me so I'm not ravenous at the end of the day after being on a sugar high.

Today just seemed anti-climactic. Just crusing through the day till it was over...

I've been feeling shitty again.

Wanting to fake illness, run home, and then just hide from the world under my warm blankets.

Hugging my pillow.

Pressing my eyes shut against the darkness.

Trying to shut out everything that seems to try to make me snap.

And now I sit here.

Cold.

And alone.

-ish.

Older Stuff:
weird weird dream. - June 18, 2006
jobness! - June 08, 2006
rommate flux - May 29, 2006
- - May 28, 2006
- - May 19, 2006

don't be afraid of the future. it doesn't include you, it only removes you.

It is the duty of every patriot to protect his country from his government."
- Thomas Payne