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Chia's feelin *shake* *shake* *blink* *blink* Yes, I am CAFFINATED! "Why?" you may ask? I'm having a nervous breakdown! I've figured it all out! The sobbing in the hall... The way I went nuts when mom said I should stay home tomorrow, and not go to school at all. Now, that might give you the impression that I like school. Far from it. I HATE most of it with a firey passion. But, I was gone for one day, and I missed an assload of stuff. If I'm gone another day, I'll miss more, and then I'll be in a pit. And then my grades will go down, and I won't be able to go to UC Berkely, and then..... ^ ^ ^ ^ See what I meant about nervous breakdown? I've never cared this much about grades. I used to laugh at people who were like this. I used to have a friend who would be very upset with herself if she got an A- on something. Am I turning into her? ANSWER ME?! AM I TURNING INTO HER??????????? I mean, I'm starting to think all of this, the depressed feelings, the feeling sick and all that... I think it's all stress. There's so much I have to do, stuff I'm supposed to remember... AGH! I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE! MAKE IT STOP! I am going to force myself to go to school tomorrow and stay there. All day. I have to give my presentation on that horrible book I didn't read. I have to find out what horrible chapter I was supposed to read for Marine Science. Just now, I was trying to open a document, and the program kept crashing, and then I had to beat the compy with my lightsabre. All my reactions are over the top, because I'm STRESSED! Or feverish, I'm not sure. But I have to go to school, have to pretend I read Pride and Prejudice... Have to do a whole bunch of crap I don't want to do without good reason. I mean, I was trying to do my algebra homework, today's and yesterdays, I was in tears, and about ready to make a lovely bonfire out of the book. The stupid book doesn't teach you anything, it just tells you one thing, and then excepts you to figure out a whole other load of crap that you'll never have to use in real life. I mean, when the fuck am I ever going to need exponents? Or negative exponents? They design the whole bedamned system on the premise of teaching yourself. That's why they tell you what to put on cheat sheets, only they call it a toolkit. Basically, all the damn book does is try to make you teach yourself. If I'm teaching myself Algebra, what the hell are they doing with my tax money? Well... caffinated bitch rampage is going to have to end now, because I am shaking... either from sheer rage, or my fever, that I am going to school with tomorrow... *looks at clock* well, actually in about... 7 hours. Gotta get up in about 5 hours... Gotta go to school... Gotta maintain sanity today... I mean really... Gotta get all the work I missed from having my "nervous breakdown"... Gotta explain why I had the nervous breakdown... Oh! Good luck me with that! Gotta give the presentation... *remembers something* And if I'm not mistaken, I have to watch myself swim as well... unless I missed that too!
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don't be afraid of the future. it doesn't include you, it only removes you.
It is the duty of every patriot to protect his country from his government."
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