I wonder what the difference is between feeling nothing and feeling empty is? I know it's different than loneliness, because I've felt that too.

When I feel nothing, I'm not sure it's not caring, like apathy, or emptiness, like something's missing, or if it's something else.

I felt nothing this morning. I was emptiness on the verge of feeling sad. A lone smile in my direction changed that, but I have no idea if it filled up some gaping hole that had manifested itself, or if it put something in place of the emptiness.

I suppose it's best not to over-analyze.

But I would like to know. Just like I'd like to know the endings and meanings of unfinished dreams. I couldn't begin to list the times I'd be asleep, and lucid dreaming, only to be awakened by the alarm and totally forget what I'd been dreaming about, or to just be left with a vauge memory. Like if dreams are shadows of life and what is to come, then a memory would be a shadow of a shadow...

Older Stuff:
i'm a chargin mah laz0rz. - September 30, 2008
the summertime blues - June 21, 2008
my life so far - March 22, 2008
empty pockets - February 19, 2008
speech pattern changes - March 12, 2007

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