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Chia's feelin I feel icky. I feel shitty. I do not feel at all. I feel empty. I just hurt. I don't know why. it's like some unexplained shadow lurking within. I just feel like something is missing, but I'm not sure what. I'm all quiet and withdrawn. I don't like it. The only time I really really spoke today was to bitch at my friend Emily for making broom stick jokes. I actually scared everyone away.(I guess I'm scary when I'm in ranting bitch mode... But she apologized for being insulting, (this was after I made my dead guy on a stick comment again) and I apologized for being a rude. She promised not to do it again. And she better not... Other than that, I just spoke in a very quiet voice all day, which is unlike me. I spoke in my Marine Science class to anwser questions on the chapter we were supposed to read that most of the class didn't. And I talked to Nick in Ethnic Lit, but that's it. I hate my stupid algebra class. It's supposed to make it so you learn to figure out the patterens and whatnot on your own, but there comes a point where you just get stuck, and there's no hints, they never tell you straight out what to do. I don't like it, because I need to know a bit of what I'm looking for, and a bit of how to go about it. And the teacher, he's a horrible teacher, he sucks at explaining things, and I don't even like asking for help at all. I mean, I can't ask my mom, she's not a math person, and my dad, he'll just go and do the problem for you, and not explain how to solve it; I learned that in 4th grade. So I'm on my own. I wish I could burn that book. I really hate math. I have, ever since 3rd grade, where the bitch teacher I had in that Catholic school I used to go to made us take timed multiplication tests everyday, and you stayed on the number you were on until you passed it, then you'd move on to another one. I was stuck on the 3s for the longest time... She was so mean... I hated her... I really think I have some sort of learning block against math. It just pisses me off that I have to learn this stuff, but when I ask the teacher when in my life, out of highschool, I will have to use it, they can never give me a good anwser that would be a situation that would happen in my life as I plan it. I want a life with as little math as possible. I want a life with words and sounds and art. I want a life with happiness... I'll just stare up and the moon and listen to the music and hope all my troubles drift away on the chords of the guitars...
Older Stuff:
don't be afraid of the future. it doesn't include you, it only removes you.
It is the duty of every patriot to protect his country from his government."
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